Saturday, 4 February 2017

SHORT STORY



THE BOOK OF DARKNESS AND LIGHT
 
It was two days before the exam. Crowding silence filled the library with cohesive groups of first year undergrads wrestling with time, breaking boredom through reticent discussions, rummaging through endless pages and of course, interminably romancing between the lines.

At the far end of the desk, she sat. A loner, drowned in lethargy. Her weary eyes navigated every corner of the room for company. She needed someone badly. Someone who could break the ice of loneliness and monotony; someone to rake off the unsavoury stress; someone to talk to; someone to study with.

Sitting at quite a distance from her, almost the other end of the room, she quickly recognized him. His dark glasses and walking stick were the unfortunate synonyms of his identity. He usually occupied the first bench in class while she sat on the last. The book in front of him read the same title as hers but differed in size. While she scratched its insipid pages out of sheer irritation, he seemed to romance with it. His tender fingers trickling those minute bumps on his page. It surely felt awkward approaching him, but, at this point, she didn’t mind anything even remotely human.

Even those stealthy footsteps did not deter him from sensing an intrusion. He quickly inclined himself towards it. Standing right beside his chair, she waited while her mind gathered the right words. Biting her lips, she exclaimed, “Hey, it’s me, Roshni. We’re in the same philosophy class. We’ve never met before, have we?”

 “Oh! Hi, no we haven’t. I’m Viaan,” he said.

“Um… My solitary self was killing me. I was wondering if we could work on Thomas Hobbes’ theory together. Share inputs and combine criticisms. After all, together is better, isn’t it?”

“Yeah, sure we can, please take a seat”

To Viaan, studying was a delayed process. But with Roshni by his side, he gladly shut his book, totally relying on her swift verbal cues. She read; he replied; she heard; he spoke and they both understood Thomas Hobbes.

It was a good twenty minutes or maybe less when the inevitable happened. It was the sudden power-cut that discharged a wave of clamour and disturbance across the room. ‘Curses’ and ‘Abuses’ zapped the oblivious corners of the library. While the looming untimely eclipse bailed out the helpless souls, some still struggled with intense flashlights. It was almost an hour later when Roshni gave up all signs of hope and was ready to leave that Viaan held her hand, retrieved his version of the same book and placed it in front of them. It was his world now. Running his fingers over the mystifying odd letters he reminded himself, “Despite darkness, life does go on.”
 
Author
Sharlene Lobo

                                                                                                                                                        

                                                                                                                                                       

 

Thursday, 2 February 2017

Once upon a reverie

         
           ...AND MY HEART BLED

Yesterday, my heart bled a little. Words are sharp-edged swords, you know. It wasn't the word that pierced through my heart. The fact that it came from someone I love, tore me apart. No, it wasn't said in the heat of an argument. I would have forgiven that. People lose their temper. They scream. They use crass words in a fit of rage. At some point, they realize they have transgressed. They are overcome with guilt. They apologize.

This was different. We had a disagreement, a prolonged silence followed and then came the word. I froze for a minute staring at my phone screen. What shocked me was the casualness and ease with which the person typed it. Did not the fingers move towards the delete button, even for a second? It pained to think they didn't. I realized that all this while, I was smothered in a cloud of false opinions about the person and our relationship.

It hurts to know that you can become meaningless in a second. Your togetherness, your secrets, your promises, everything, gets compressed into one word that is said without thought or guilt, and it reduces everything you shared to nothingness.

A part of me wanted to go back and fight for us to be together in spite of the hurt. Don't we all do that - go back to the people who break us - because attachment is stronger than hurt?

There was another part of me that questioned me: When you say, "Let's forget about it and move on," do you want it to sound like an apology to yourself to be with someone who belittles you?  It isn't love's job to punish you, is it?

I curled up inside myself. I decided to let my trusted architect friend do the work for me. Time. It constantly builds and unbuilds our relationships.


From Once Upon A Reverie. 
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